crazy weeks/coffee talk

It’s rare that I really talk about me, but I’ve been in such a WEIRD place in life lately, I felt like writing about it.  Lot of stress the last week or two…  been looking for a new apartment with my roommate (also best friend).  We are getting a two bedroom, but he’s had a lot of shiteeee in the last year and although he will be helping pay in the future, I kind of have to cover the initial first/lasts/security/fee/etc/etc/etc.  Which I’m so happy to do, really… but it’s a lot. He’s one of the few (3?) people who know I do this, and he’s the one I call to check in at the beginning of every appointment.  He’s the ONLY person who knows I have this blog.  I’m sure he’ll be reading this, but it’s nothing he doesn’t know.  Before we found a place, between finding an apartment, coming up with the money, actually moving, boy problems (see below), I had a couple moments of feeling totally overwhelmed.

The place we found needs first/last months rent, which is a lot, but could be worse.  I was planning on making all of that myself, but time has been rapidly running out, so I called the ‘rents and they are loaning me a big chunk of the money.  If all goes well, I’ll be able to pay them back in the first couple months.

I’ve been seeing the above mentioned boy for about a month.  Just dates and chilling, he’s not a boyfriend yet.  I’m not sure he will be, really.  But it has caused some angsty feelings in me because of my rent boy status.  Who am I kidding! I’m just being angsty about him in general.  I don’t think we will be official super soon (if at all), but he’s the first boy in a while that it’s a possibility.  Right now we are free to do whatever we want (and he is, unless the empty magnum wrapper that was definitely not on my dick was placed by his bedside just for decoration), so I don’t really have a moral/ethical problem with continuing this work while casually dating him.  Frankly, I wouldn’t be surprised if the sexual encounters he has had in his lifetime put me at far greater risk than my ‘jobs.’  He’s kind of a freak in bed.  All that being said…  During my last encounter (see entry to follow) there were a couple moments where I got these pangs thinking about him.  I guess I wasn’t expecting to have anything serious anytime soon?  And it isn’t yet…  so i’m good.  for now.

My adventure into the world of paper ads was a bust.  I had a few responses, but nothing panned out.  I’ve put my ad back online, and there is a clear difference. Although maybe that was just from people seeing a new ad up?  But either way, I should be meeting on wednesday with a guy who has called a couple of times.  He seems to love music, asked me if I like absinthe and grass (which I may sip/puff, but I’m not looking to get messy with a client, especially on the first meeting).  He said he wanted to be topped, likes nipple play, and didn’t want me to wear deodorant… but also seemed like he wanted to just chill.  He said I would find him very interesting, and that he is ‘famous.’  Not sure on what level.  If all goes well, i should be doing an overnight with him.  I’m also meeting for just an hour with a guy who I’ve been playing email tag with for months.  He’s into “massage, kissing, oral (giving and receiving), and rimming/topping a nice jockstrapped butt “.  sooooooooo yeah.  time to pull out the ol’ jockstrap.  I’m hoping this turns into longer meetings in the future, he seemed to be a nice guy…  he said, “A little longer may be nicer another time once we’re both comfortable ” so we’ll see!  In theory, all of this will cover the new apartment.  (please please please).

My next update will be about my old guy (1 2 3).  He’s becoming a regular!  And for various reasons, I’ve seen him a bunch this week.  I’ll try to put that up tomorrow or wednesday.  Thanks for reading!

-B