today is a workin’ day
Escorting has such a push and pull for me. Most of the time, I want to be done with it. Socially, most people I know would be upset or appalled if they found out I escort on the side. I would like to avoid the stress and danger. And I’d like to only have sex with hot people. On the flip side, it’s SO profitable, and once I’ve found a client, it’s relatively easy.
When I’m running low on money, I consider all my other options before escorting. I hem and haw with my roommate, seeing if it’s possible to overdraft my bank account for the 10th time, juggling credit cards and paypal accounts. What can I sell on craigslist? But this time, I’m about $200 or $300 short, and that will be easy enough. I realize this may seem in contrast to many other entries that are so pro-prostitution, but there is a fair amount of stress associated with this job for me. I woke up a little late (2:30… maybe I shouldn’t have stayed up until 7am watching The Walking Dead) and realized today is a working day. I’m not really in the mood, but the universe has decided. ah well.
I guess everyone has those days they don’t want to head into the office!
-B
December 2, 2010 at 5:08 pm
Dont you ever get depressed?how was it Thanksgiving?Does your family know your secret?Dear boy I hope life wont hurt you
December 2, 2010 at 6:28 pm
If you feel so much remorse, please don’t do it. It’s not good for you or your potential clients….
December 2, 2010 at 6:58 pm
I was worried about posting this because I knew I’d get comments like these! Not remorse, not depression… There is just some stress associated with this job, with walking into unknown with strangers. My point isn’t that I hate myself when I do this… it’s that some days, I don’t feel like heading into the office!
December 2, 2010 at 7:02 pm
also maybe it was misleading when I said I always explore every other option before escorting… but again, that’s not because it makes me hate my life. It’s just that I’d rather avoid the stress if I can.
December 3, 2010 at 12:13 pm
i guess meeting someone for the first time and putting your best foot forward can be stressful but if the clients have seen your pic before and are expecting a certain amount of pleasure from their encounter with you, i think you should have enough confidence in your ability to “act” the role and provide a great session! Maybe if you have a few regular clients who meet up twice a week on a weekly basis will help cover whatever costs you have and then you don’t have to advertise…that may help solve the problem of walking into a stressful unknown.
I, myself, prefer the routine comfort of hooking up with a hot guy i’ve seen in the past…
December 16, 2010 at 2:28 pm
It is unfortunate that the discourse around sex work so often falls into 2 categories: unrestrained condemnation or mindless celebration. Fundamentally, it’s a job like any other, and, quite frankly, most people don’t love their jobs. Some hate them, some love them, but most probably would rather be doing something else. That’s why it’s called work, and that’s why it pays. And I suppose sex work carries more risk than many jobs, but certainly not all. Being a miner in China is probably much more dangerous, and less interesting. So I think some ambivalence is indeed healthy. And Andy, I would guess that seeing a regular client twice a week is probably an unrealistic goal. I imagine with most regulars, it would be less often, maybe once a week if one is lucky.